How to see our failings as grace
Why do we fear failure?
Why are we so gripped by the weight of opinion? We have the capacity to lay ourselves down underneath the foot of pride, and we often stay there. We let it stomp, kick the dirt off, and wipe them off on a body that has been made new. Why do we treat it as if it’s the floor mat?
Matthew 10:28 And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell
This is a deep one today. One that is not written lightly, nor innocently, for I struggle with this daily.
I struggle with the disappointment in someone’s eyes. I struggle with the overwhelming emotion that I am not good enough to do _____. I struggle with wanting to be the best writer, the best wife, the best friend, the best daughter. I have drawn up my own measuring stick and made it impossible for me to climb.
Anyone else relate to this?
What’s beautiful about our stories, our pasts, our upbringing; the things about who we are that make us different than the person next to us; the beauty in that truth is that it is impossible to create a measuring stick, and possible to all play on the same field.
I say that to say this: there can be no failure in a body that is “even.” We are all equally sinners and failures in the sense of glory; but we are also all forgiven and loved in the light of grace. We have a God that has offered us a soul in the palm of His hand, wrapped in His strength, and secured within His promises. Our body is oppositely sitting on the enemy’s land, wrapped in betrayal, and secured in nothing.
So, when we are faced with the eyes of disappointment, who are we disappointing? The enemy has nothing to measure when the measurement has already been weighed on the cross. It is finished. We are not bound by the mistakes, the mishaps, the miss-judgments, the reactions, the forgetfulness. We are offered an opportunity to repent, and identity with the love of Christ for us, over the identity of a worldly standard.
I am brought back to the question then, why do we fear failure?
I think a lot of this is rooted in the sense that our creation begins with “failing.” The fall was a choice against our Father. Like a child disobeying their parents, we ignored the better knowledge of our Father in heaven. I think we can get caught up in this and weave it into failure every day. But here’s the thing: my question was not if we have or have not failed, it’s why are we fearful of it?
There’s a difference.
We must recognize that we are not God and cannot obey Him to the full scopes of the bible. But HE KNOWS THAT. Hence, the same playing field. You and I are simply forgiven of the known setbacks and get to encourage each other to keep going.
Failure in the world immobilizes us; but failure in God is grace.